College Applications

I just completed my 3rd or 4th college application for this year. I feel good about this one, but all my old fears are coming back, what if I'm not good enough for this school? What if I go, and I hate it? What if I can't afford the school?

At this point, I can't really afford to be choosy, because if this school does not work out, then I am stuck going to school instate. I don't want to be in my home state any longer. Ever since I graduated last Saturday, I have had a confirmation of feelings that I have had since I was little, after graduating high school, I am done with this state. That is the only thing about my future that is sure, I need a change of environment. 

That moment of clarity is so important to me, it is what is driving me to search and keep searching until I find that college that is right for me. I only wish that there was a website that could just direct you to the perfect college, but this is the real world. If I want something, I have to go out there and take it for myself and stop hoping that people will take it for me.
Is there really such thing as the perfect college? Or is that just another one of those fairy tales that are told to us when we were younger to make sure that we kept in line?

    ** Future Unsure **